It’s one thing to look at time and see how much of it there is. From the outside, I can see lots of hours in the morning, night and in between classes, on the train into school, there’s lots of time. In practice it dries up, gets wasted or lost to TV, family and fatigue. What’s really hard is that I’ve mostly learned my lesson. I’m good at procrastinating, which doesn’t help one bit.

Tempus Fugit, time flies.

My math and chemistry crap is so simple and it seems simple. I can clearly see how its done. But, there’s no homework due in either, so I do the stuff I have to do, read the stuff that’s required to read and figure that I’ll be able to catch up quickly later… Only the topics build on each other.  I’ve gotten to the point that I only vaguely understand what’s said in class and then have to go home and figure it out on my own. I waited to do it and now I’m in perpetual catch up. I cram it all in, take a test and then cram all my math in. Back and forth, I can almost do it, but the process of catching up means I neglect the other class. 

The good news is that I haven’t failed anything yet, most of the stuff that counts is still in the future so I can continue trying to catch up. It just makes me question what’s worth it, and whether I can not do something even if it’s not worth it.

I really liked Tim Burton’s Corpse Bride, and I’ve watched the season premieres of Grey’s Anatomy and Lost. It’s a fair amount of time, especially when I’m behind, but I need to keep my sanity somehow.  Anyway. I need to sleep. I’ve got my first test in Chemistry tomorrow and I need to be able to think. I understand it, I’ve just got to get the right answers. (And who the hell puts e=mc2 into an introductory chemistry course? Sure it’s kind of cool to use it, but what purpose does it serve? 50,000 tons of coal burned results in 18 grams of matter being converted to energy? We need to know this, right now, why?}